How to start this after a few months not typing on this blog. Well thats easy.. I just start ranting and ranting.
Lately I've been trough many shit. The weekend of this abunai convention I met a lot of nice people and remet all of my good friends. It was fun, but very tiredsome at the same time. Friday was awesome! I've been partying like crazy and just did my own things. Saturday I had a bit of a hangover that day, but it was also fun...The only thing is...My fricking ex girlfriend e-mailed me about her coming on the sunday with of course her girlfriend. I freaked out and after this everything just gotten worse and worse. How to say this.. I just didnt want to see her. She kind of ruined everything for me that day. I havent even been to the acts I wanted to go. I never missed those. That day was just weird. And then the evening. I wanted to have some fun with a friend of mine who slept in my hotelroom. Well the beginning was fun, but after that she remet with her ex girlfriend and everything went strange after that... We were at the disco and had lots of fun, after that we went to my room to continue the party over there. And we did...but it was strange... The guy who went with us is like loved by lots of girls and the ex girlfriend of my friend wanted to stay also. So the night went from -->; PARTY HARDY to --->; Almost sex in my room.. Now everybody is calling out that we had an orgy over there. Well if we had one , then It would be totally akward right. It was weird. I felt awkward, especially because I missed these kind of things with my ex girlfriend, and ofcourse because I havent been doing this shit for more then 7 years. So I was scared for sure. Anyways that was the saturday, pretty weird and hectic. Now the sunday... Yup the sunday.. How was my sunday. She came alright. When I saw her, my heart went totally crazy, I didnt know what to do. She walked towards me and my heart went totally crazy, it was like that moment I almost fainted.. Weird it was.. I still dont know how to describe this feeling in words, but It was weird.. Anyways, I told her to come with me to a place further away from the crowed. And we talked... we talked about everything.. And how much I've missed her, how much she still meant for me. How much I still love her... Ugh the irony of love. Cant someone just shoot the love away? Or just shoot me... I hate this feeling. I fucking hate the feeling of falling in love and being betrayed and falling in love over and over again. Even falling in love with the wrong persons. I really hate it!
