Things ranting and so on~

Hey there all,

A lot happend lately. First, my girlfriend broke up with me after almost 3 years we've been dating... Yeah, then how am I supposed to think happy now? I know right.. Well at first I had some difficulties and I knew that it would be lots of work to stay friends with her. But the problem now is.. She's dating her ex!! She totally backstabbed me with this. She knew I would have problems with this all. Yes, so I decided to quit the contact we had and deleted everything that reminded me of her >__>". Still dealing with this..

Nothing much to say actually... The positive thing in life now is that I finally graduated from that damn school! Now up to the future. Oh and I made lots of new friends too ^__^.

-rant rant ranting-

This is a quote from a movie "17 again".... I thought of this when I wished things were different, that I'm still dating my ex..But yeah thats life I guess

"Scarlet, before you go through this, I want to remind you of September 7th, 1988. It was the first time that I saw you. You were reading Less Than Zero, and you were wearing a Guns 'n' Roses t-shirt. I'd never seen anything so perfect. I remember thinking that I had to have you or I'd die... then you whispered that you loved me at the homecoming dance, and I felt so peaceful... and safe... because I knew that no matter what happened, from that day on, nothing can ever be that bad... because I had you. And then I, uh... I grew up and I lost my way. And I blamed you for my failures. And I know that you think you have to do this today... but I don't want you to. But I guess... if I love you, I should let you move on."

Especially the last line, It made me think of her. I guess if you really love someone, you have to let them go and let them be truely happy. Well thats what I'm trying to do now, to let go of her. I did with my body, but not with my heart and soul. And thats the reaon why I'm still in such a pain and anger. Hope after a few months or so I will be happy again and let her go.

I still miss and love you...

You, were my one and only.

But for now,

Goodbye......

马克斯~