Changes

Minna San,

Genki?

I wanted to write a bit about something I just learned today.
I had to write an essay about my life. You know, the " typical life events" .. This was something really difficult for me to do, because I've been trough a lot of things in my life and experienced a lot of things.
Why I want to write about something like that? Well, not only because I had to, but I think its good for me too..

I used to live in the past. I used to think about all the things I did wrong, all the things that where good and all the things I wanted to return too.
There's a lot I wanted to change. I wanted to change that my father lived with me again and that I was never born a girl... I wanted to be a guy so badly.. I wanted to change that no one liked me, no matter how hard I tried to have them like me.

I wanted to be better and be better and things I like to do, like drawing or playing the guitar or even martial arts... I really am envious about some of my friends that are good at the things I really like to be good at!

When I was a child I really enjoyed the little things I had, I liked to fantasy a lot about things, even the smallest things were big to me. I really miss those times. Even though sometimes I still fantasy about things, but thats just simply not the same like those old days..

Well I kinda accept now that I live like this, and that I have to learn with the things I have. I have to respect my own life so that I can respect the life of the others.

I wanted to say that I really love my girlfriend and that I hope that we can be together forever and just live happily :)


Thats it for now.
Back to my studies.


马克斯~